Rest in Paradise, Little Ashley

I've only met you a few times. But, I know how hard this must be for your grandma, whom we know and love. Age 9 is an early age to go, but I know there's a reason for everything. Regardless, we miss you and your neverending source of energy!

This morning, I found out that little Ashley passed away and it just hit that spot stored away somewhere in my heart that brings back strong, sad feelings. I couldn't help but be sad while missing and thinking of Suchaya and Michelle. Strangely, we heard that Ashley had passed away from the same condition of HLH that Suchaya had. Coincidently, I was looking through all of the pictures I had with Suchaya. It's just astonishing how short life is and how lives just continuously come and go. I can never express enough how all of us need to live everyday as if it were our last and spend our days to our fullest extent, living life how we would like to be remembered. Each and every single human being on this planet has the capability to do wonders. There are so many other lives that don't have it as good as we do and we're just kickin back complaining about all the homework we're receiving. I have that issue too and then I think about all these lives that are gone and the lives that are suffering and it's kind of my motivation to keep on going forward. At times like these, I become extremely thankful that I have forced myself to indulge in so many activities that require almost all of my time. If I wasn't so busy, I'd be in a corner creating oceans with my tears. Since Suchaya's funeral I have created this motto that I still go by and share with anyone who's down "Work hard now, cry later" It's so simple, yet powerful, and definitely a good boost amidst all the mess and chaos in my life.

Continue to rest peacefully in paradise, bestfriend. I miss you more and more each day. And still, to this day, life is completely different without you here. Without your "hey cuzzn :]" texts at random hours, your ever so uplighting talks, your amazing advice, your addicting laughs, your attracting personality, and so much more. I miss you like no one will ever know.  STAY FLYYYY, GIRL. It's you, me, and Kimmy for life. I love you.

I have to preach for chapel tomorrow and I'm talking about fear and losing Michelle and Suchaya. If I cry, I hope it's at the right moment.

creating energy when i have none.

much love,

=)